this isnt that important so if you don't wanna read it you don't have to..
i dunno..he's so weird.. alex says he doesn't like me but when i put stuff like: "i'll never be enough for you" and "i'm sorry for thinking i'd ever have a chance i'm sorry" as my icons he gets all ticked off..and he's ticked at me for reasons he won't tell me. i can't believe i ever loved him..he's such a...how to edit how to edit... jackass for lack of a better editted word... he wouldn't give me a hug and i've been hugging him for like 3 years now..he won't give me a reason why he wont date me.. he says he doesnt wanna ruin our friendship..HELLO!! if he and leeann can go out, break up numerous times, adn still be friends why can't i have a chance? thats all i want..i'm not asking for forever here...just a trial period..i dunno maybe he's only being an idiot to stop me from hurting myself liking him..i dunno..anyone out there got any suggestions?

he forgave me in the most unforgiving way but i forgive him...wow thats alot of forgives....he knows hes write though and knows it is all my fault. why cant a guy just tell a girl she's right when she's not? it would save a whole lot of arguments. oh by the way, i gave up all hope on ever being with him and trying to pursue happiness elsewhere just like he wants..an impossible plan...

the guy i like totally got ticked at me because i told him my feelings were pointless but when i told him i loved him, he acted as though he couldn't care less!!!!!!!!!!!! grr...i hate him so much! yet i love him my feelings are confused!!!!!!!!!!!!

I used to think life would be perfect if you found the right person to love. Well, that is so wrong!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The one I do love is a total idiot and I hate him so much! Yeah, I know I contradicted myself, I do not care either. Oh Well. Love comes and goes so I will be over him soon enough, I hope....